Nothing special....

Its 5am in the morning now, 1st of April 2009.

Its April Fool day XD.

Well....i can't sleep....don't know why....just feel like typing some stuff here....

Currently im listening to Your Call - Secondhand Serenade

Something wrong with me i guess....always can't sleep....

I really don't know want to type what here nor what to say....

Just feel like moving my fingers to type type type non-stop....

My mind is blank now....i can't even think properly of what i should do....

Did i told you guys before im a scenery lover? Yes? No? Perhaps No....

Well, yeah. Im a scenery lover. I love to stare at the mountains, the sea or any wonderful scenery while listening to my favourite songs and enjoying my favourite drinks....

I bet i will do so when im old one day....while enjoying my older life with no regret....

I love sentimental songs....it relaxes my mind....feeling so fresh....

What should i do now? Keep on sitting infront of computer?

Or should i go sleep? Hmm....maybe....

Maybe i really should go sleep now....

Nights ~ ....

What's wrong?

Hehe....today abit very blur....maybe coz ytd night didn't sleep....today i got car driving lesson at 10am to 12pm. As usual....im asked to drive at 3 roads, road C, G and F. Unexpected....my car's engine die =.=", not my day i think....haha....i think maybe cause im tired so can't focus properly....haha. My instructor don't dare to sleep today XD. He asked me what happened to me today? Why car engine keep goes off? I could not reply anything but a smile to him while thinking....'' OMG, what happaned to me? It is cause i didn't sleep? '' LoL

After my car driving lesson, i head back home. I online again when i reached home....then i took a bath. Later on, i went downstair online again. I was sitting on an office chair with my leg on the table, accidentally i felt my back pain and i realised i sprained my back. HAHA. So stupid of me....even now still paining....tomorrow gonna have another 1 hour driving lesson....haha....wish me luck ^^
Then Friday QTI le @@....abit nervous....haha. If fail don't laugh me lor XD

How i wish....to change the unchangeable....

People said life is meaningless...i said NO!. Life is wonderful, full with challenges, full with love, full with experience, full with happiness, full with fun, full with sadness. Everyone did mistake, no one is born to be perfect. Time passed very fast, how i wish i could go back in time to change what we can before its too late....how i wish my family is not broken....how i wish im still a kid playing everyday not knowing sadness and hatred....how i wish i never lost my good fren....how i wish i never know her earlier....how i wish what done can be undone....how i wish i can never be a loner....how i wish i can be happy all the time....as well as the others....how i wish everything are not true....how i wish....

Not knowing sincerity, not knowing the truth, not knowing the life, please don't judge.
Life is tough....life is a test of a lifetime to us, human beings, it can only be done for ONCE in a lifetime. Regretting is not the point Appreciation is the key, Truth is the past Retry is the hope. Im just a 18 years old guy....not to be confident in life, however i met with alot of situations before. Situations which tested me out of fear, out of hatred, out of sadness, and out of happiness. And i learnt my mistakes, i learnt what is life....it is just touch n go....don't stop....you will only fall back far behind. Life is a cycle....where living and dead to go....where people are born people are dead....

There will always a better time for us....no matter how bad it is....appreciate what the God gave you, appreciate the one standing around us all the time. Enjoy your day with a smile....everything will goes well....as long as you have faith you will have hope, as long as you have confident you will be success. I don't know how should i say this, but i really envy people who managed to live on with difficulties in their lives. I may not have strong difficulties, but i do have my own problems....im stressed with my family problems and my living days by days. With the supports from my friends i wll not give up easily....i will do the best for myself....i will try my best to do what i can....

3 months passed ==

oh sweat....dear God....3 months passed since my last blog post @@ hmm...so many things happened in these 3 months time...it was totally a heart breaking start of the year....nothing can be done to prevent it from happened. Sad, anger, depression, lonely was part of my life in these 3 months....i've been trying very hard to move on....on and on and on...days by days....just like nothing have ever happened before....but i can't lie to myself....THIS IS THE FACT! and i have to FACE IT! What have happened? LoL....not telling you....haha. From now on...i will change myself from top to toe, changing to be better without letting others to look down upon me as well as myself....wil lcontinue my dream to be a pilot....i hope everything goes well....even if it is not, i will still further my studies in college....i won't give up....i've been very sad in the past month....its truly hurted my heart deeply....but its ok....i will learn to accept it....forgive and forget! I learnt something new....happiness is the most priceless things in the world....nothing can ever take over the value of happiness....our life are short....we won't know when will we die....its all decided by the God of our living and dead....i will take this as a lesson in my lifetime....my first wonderful lesson of my lifetime....without regretting it....

Yes, im tired....tired of feeling all alone....however solidtary makes me stand up and strive....to do what i have to....cause i was born to do what i should do....and im torn to do what i have to....life is hard to be predictable....we won't know what will happen next....we will just have to walk step by step....doing what we could....doing what we can....doing what we ought to do....sometimes....it is destined....however, my mum always told me....do not regret of what i have ever done....because what done is done and it is done by our own hand....so just let it be....now i realised that i have did a big mistake....forget and forgive is important....learn to forget and learn to forgive....eventualy you will be happier