College life started....

Hmm...i've been staying in Penang for 2 weeks and getting used to the environment there, the lifestyle there. 
My housetmates are nice, my roommates are nice and almost everyone there are friendly. 
My class started on Thursday last week, Nutrition and Food Hygiene will be my course subject for this semester.
As well as two LAN subjects which is Malaysian Studies and Pendidikan Moral. 
Today is saturday, 13rd June 2009, and tomorrow im going back to Penang again.
And monday start i will go back to my usual studies life, i will work hard for it. 
The course im taking is IMI Diploma in Professional Chef Training and honestly, its not easy and don't ever think that you can't study thats why you took this course.
Its tough, it needs patient, needs creativity, needs skills and lots of hard works. 
For this semester, my class started at 8am and ends at 12 noon. 
However, for Tuesday, my class extended until 4pm in the evening. 
Quite relaxing for the first semester but its a short semester and consists of only 7 weeks. 
Have to work hard for it then. 
My birthday is coming soon in another one week time, i hope that i can celebrate my birthday on the actual day which is 22nd June 2009 happily with my friends. 
It is my 18th birthday and not every year we can celebrate it. 
Lately, nothing seems to be goes well for me but i will not give up. I will stand up and keep on walk, walk and walk. 
What passed is passed, no one can amend back those unwanted beginnings. 
I wish that everyone whom i knew live happily and always stay happy, safe and sound and stay healthy. 
That is my wish for everyone....

Thanks to EVERYONE ~ ~

Wow....today was a nice day for me....i woke up at 8am in the morning to wash my motor and polish my motor....den i decided to go to my friend's shop to buy some shorts....however, my motor was down again ==

Can't start and i have to call my friend who is a foremen to help me fix it....and he have to push my motor to his shop in Aulong....
Around 2pm, Joyee called me and came to pick me up at my friend's workshop in Aulong, she fetched me home to bath and told me to bring extra clothes coz they plan to go to ''Austin Pool'' to ''play water'' =="

After bathing, Joyee fetched me to her house and she told me she wanna ''bath'' and asked me to wait in the living room....and THEN, suddenly!!, alot of ppl pop put from Joyee's room >0<
I was shocked and saw Hoay Yean holding a cake with her hand and they sang birthday song to me....ohh....birthday celebration? Or farewell party? HAHA

Anyway im so happy with this surprise they provided. Thank you to all of you (Kar Chun, Joyee, Hoay Yean, Jia Huey, Sui Aing, Hui Inn, Mei Fen, Dennis) for this surprises.
Then we all went home to get prepare for the night coming event. At night we went out to Taiping Sentral again, we went for snookering while the girls went for a walk. There were so many ppl in Taiping Sentral. Maybe cause of holidays.

Then we head to Old Prima for our dinner and i met with Wilshen and Jialyn and we have a chat there. Our last meeting i guess and i don't even know when can i meet them again. Haihh...around 10pm+ we all went to siang malam to yumcha again....haha all bullshitting at there....around 11pm we went to the car park lot opposite zoo taiping and loiter there....crapping and talking bout some religion stuff xD
and scaring off Mei Fen with Dennis....HAHAHAHA....
And then we went back home around 12am....hmm....
Its 1.15am now....i'll be leaving here tomorrow at noon....so miss you all T.T


To all my friends....i miss you all very much....

~ Friends Forever ~

Woot O.O

HoHo....tomorrow i go Penang le....

so miss my friends here T.T

aihh....what to do? have to chao oso....

Kar Chun....wat time we gonna bertolak? 5AM in the morning? XD

whahaha....pls r = = 

feel kinda excited....but sad too leh....

my mum summore dun let me always come bk....once a month nia....

haihh....i hope everything goes well for me....

arhh~ ~ half of year 2009 gone d....

walao....i've been sitting down doing nothing for 6 months....wtf

time passed so fast....lidat wer can steam? 

haha....

Woot O.O

to my friends....

Wahh....wan play until lidat meh? 
im weak hearted one leh....T.T
i think back of my daily school life again....
OMG that was our most fascinating memories....
i feel so happy being around with all of u my friends....
so miss u guys....and i wish to go bk to the moments again....
everytime when i look back again i will very very miss it....
and i feel like crying T.T
FORM 2, FORM 3, FORM 4 den FORM 5.....
disaster betul ~ ~
hahahaha....so miss it!!! damn!!!
to kar chun....really thanks for the message....im shocked u wrote dat to me....wahh....
read d wan cry lo....T.T
i wont miss the moment we spent our time together too....
play, laugh, eat and study together.....everything are so fun....
wat happened has happened....can't change it anymore....
the time have passed....can't go back anymore....
from now on....we should appreciate all the time we have....hav fun together....
im sorry too if i hav make u angry or hurt ur feelings....
if i hav did any mistake pls guide me....
thanks....

Thanks to Kar Chun >.<

Hmm....today i feel like very special....haha....i got an email from Kar Chun....check it out.....

''Poh Harn,

You will be leaving us this Sunday..1st of all I would like to apologize to you if I accidentally hurt your feeling without I knowing that..sorry ya..time flies extremely fast..we getting older n older..and all the sweet memories will never been erased from my mind forever..you still remember when the 1st day u step in SGI..that is the day where we make friend till now..every moment we pass 2gather..play 2gather ..hang out 2gather..i will remember it forever..everyday I flip through all the photos that we take in class I feel regret cos I din really appreciate the moment..but wat 2 do..pass is pass..the most important thing now is we must look forward 2 our future..i miss the day we hang out 2gather..i miss the day we ponteng class 2gather..i miss the day we study 2gather..i miss the day we make jokes n laugh like no body business 2gather..i miss the day when we in 5sc2..i miss the moment we watch movie 2gather and last but not least I will miss you SIM POH HARN..that is all the sweet memories I had after I get 2 know u..so..good luck in your future overtakings..do miss us ya..what ever problem u have dun ever give up cos u gt a lot friends behind u..remember that no matter how far you are..we as your Friends will always support you from behind..cos friends are meant 2 be like that..so just give it a go n work hard in your studies..dun ever look back at all the bad memories but do look back at all the sweet memories..work hard 2 success in your life ..make us n your family member proud..and always remember that we as your friends..dun ever n never try 2 forget us..’setiap pertemuan pasti ada perpisahan’..so just go and study hard..finally I thank god cos I have a friend like you..i will miss you SIM POH HARN..take care and may god bless you..''

i feel so touching when i gt this message....ya....i feel very regret too coz didn appreciate the time we spent together properly.....T.T

i will remember u too Kar Chun....coz u're one of my fren which i always mixed together with....

nvm nvm....we gonna mix together in Penang soon XD

that will be nice ^^Y 

Thanks for this message pal....I love you T.T

~ Friends Forever ~ 

 

ahem ahem

hmm....sienzz !!!

hahahaha.....

wan spam my blog ka u all? hehehe 

mai la....dun spam la....

later my blog become too famous d ar kar chun....

hahahaha....nvm la...

wan spam come here spam....im waiting for u all xD

welcome welcome XD

i wan to see how many comments u all can spam....

see can pecah another record bo XD

whahahaha....

why all me?

wat the fuck?
why everytime is my fault? 
why everytime is me?
why not other ppl?
have u ever care of my feelings?
have u ever care of how i feel?
do u think for me?
did u?
u are all a bastard!
u all never think of me! im invisible to u all!
whether have me or not it is no difference to all of u!
what's the use of me in  here? 
nothing i did or done are good for u!
nothing is correct for me!
u think u're the smartest....in fact u're an idiot!
u think u're the greatest....in fact u're just a small mouse!
im angry!
im sad!!
and im sick of u all!!!
u take me as ur what huh?  
pet? puppet? chess pieces? 
damn u!
have u ever think and care of what i wan?
u arrogant? or i arrogant? 
u think back again urself la!
use ur gonna-rot-brain and think carefully in ur fucking room!
i damn hate u all!!

wahh...haha....all kisiao....

hmm hmm....today all kisiao d....we go spam joyee's blog....

hahahaha.....now is 6.40am.....haha.....

wah....we cipta record....we spam 65 comments in joyee's blog just now....

whahahaha.....now im going to bukit larut with joyee....go exercise abit xD

hahahaha.....its early morning now....lol....wanna join us? xD

find us there k? we wait for u xD

yesterday whole night i was watching movie online....hm....every night cant sleep again....

gonna become mad soon....LoL....

hahahaha.....hmm....gonna have a new haircut soon....yaya!!

xD hahahaha.....no need fed up with my old hairstyle d....

hmmm...ok la...gtg ya....catch up with ya next time....haha...wanna go prepare myself d....

bye....

can't sleep ><

ahem....i can't sleep....LoL >< something wrong with me again? haha

well....im not sure....so what are you doing? haha.....

i guess u can't reply me coz u're a blog website....hahaha....sorry....

hmm....duno wan talk about what....haha....

i chao go listen song sin....sorry ya xD

meet ya in here again next time....byebye....

happier days to go....

Here im back after didn blog for so long....2 weeks or 3 weeks? haha....no matter no matter....

i felt better and better day by days....i guess so....at last i found someone who can brightened the darkness in me....yeah....that's it

quite many events happened during those time i didn blog....hanging out with friends....movie? McDonald? yumcha? SkySpace cybercafe?

haha....our 2nd home i guess....hmm, nothing much to say....well, my mum is coming back to Malaysia for holiday soon....guess we gonna meet each other soon....LoL....i don't even know shud i be happy or not....

altho getting better day by days, however, my feelings still tends to mixed up....feeling down and up....whenever it is....i think it is really the time to let it go now....it is the time now....

no more hessistating or thinking....its time for a brand new life....a brand new one ^^

by the way....today i passed my JPJ car test....haha....im happy with it....thanks to all my friends who wish me luck....but wat to do? im good xD ( lansi abit ) hehe....

i was so nervous waiting for my turn....OMG....i waited from 8am until 2pm at sepakat ==
can u believe it? 

arhh....one bad news....im going bk to JB soon....gonna leave Taiping again since im done with my JPJ....time to further my life and studies....haha....

gonna miss all my friends here....i will come back when im free and whenever i can....promise ^^

good luck everyone ^^ wish u all everyday is a great day

Sad :'(

Haihhh....day by days passed....don't even know wanna do what =.=
So boring....wan go out also can't....pocket money left not much....
Don't dare to spend alot le....no work no money....hahaha....
Might as well stay at home lor....nothing can be done....
Everyday will online, play facebook =.="
Aikks....feel like playing Ragnarok again....hehehe....so long didn't play le....
Its just so BORINGGGG.....boring boring boring =.=
Hate Taiping....lols....
nothing to do, nowhere to go....what a boring town....
100% not suitable for youngster like us....
Yesterday want go Penang with WeiLing geh....budden i no transport....
Haihhh....feel so guilty....lolx....kinda pang pui ki....hahaha
Paise ya ling ling xD
Today is 9th of April le....so fast @@
Why am i still thinking of it? Swtt
I should just forget it larkk....haihhh
I need time i think....hmm....life goes on....

Weird...

Arhh....i started to sleep at 9pm or 10pm now and woke up at 5am or 6am+ =.=
What happened again this time? LoL
Never mind....hmm....kinda boring....
Everyday stay at home....today is Tuesday....
There's an election going on....wonder will they fight tonight? XD
My advice....stay at home....LoL
Alot of police out there @@ makes me scare too....wonder what will happen....
Damn them....always nothing to do go make problems....CHAOS....
Hmm....feel abit stress....suddenly alot of things crop up in my family....
My grandma wanna buy house....need $$$....my uncle wanna do business....keep asking for $$$ too....
And im taking flying school....need $$$ too....i think they will ask me to study other course bah....
Haihh....hate them! All always like that de....
Arhhh....whatever then....day by days....i'll see what will happen....
Feel like wanna go far far away from here....far far away....
And start everything new there....forget what happened here....
Arrhhhh....hehehe....

QTI passed XD

Yay....today i passed my car QTI....whahaha
My JPJ will be on April 27th....^^
Today very early wake up le....we go cheng beng earlier....
Go pray my grandfather....5 years liao since he passed away....
Time passed so fast....im 18 le =.=
Old jorhx la....face also berkedut ady la....
Now is 8pm....just wake up from sleeping =.=
So tired leh....hahaha.....
Going out soon....go find my friends....
XD

Unlucky of the unluckiest @@

Wahh!! Swt swt swt swt swt swt swt...............

Today damn unlucky arr!!! My pc got strike by lightning and

BOOMMM!!!!

T.T wuwuwuwuwuwu ~ ~

My pc gone.....all my songs, pictures, notes and my documents !!!!!

ALLL!!!! G-O-N-E-!!!!

Wahhhh!!!!! Wuwuwuwuwuwu....

Why eh God....?? Whyy...??

And....i somemore caught in the rain....from my way back home....my whole body is wet....

Back until home somemore no dinner leftover for me @@

Then, i accidentally press on the WAP button....DIGI took away RM6+ from me T.T

Then my laptop somemore don't have the new msn version....T.T

Very very very unlucky ar!!!!

Wuwuwuwuwuwuwu....

Very kolian oo.....wuwuwuwu

T.T

2nd day of April 2009

Hmm....today is the 2nd day of April 2009. Now is 6.05am in the morning. I can't sleep, so decided to online and watch tv....im so boring and lonely =.=
No one online in msn. I think they are sleeping @@ haihh....listeningto song while blogging now....my system got mixed up....i stay awake while others sleep....and i sleep while others stay awake....
Bat or Owl? LoL....i can't even figure it out myself....everyday download song and listen....doing nothing....kinda wasting my time....
Friday QTI liao....hehehe....managed to get a booking for JPJ test on April 20th....so lucky....btw, i finished all my car driving lessons in one week time....Hohoho!
So fast XD

Aikkss....hope everything goes well for me XD....i don't wanna fail my QTI....T.T
Today is thursday....im free abit cause no driving lesson today....so maybe i gonna sleep for the whole day again....LoL
Like a sleeping pig....XD
Haihh....feel so boring....moody....why did i feel like that? Not last time geh me anymore....
My friends said i changed alot....well....did i?
Maybe kua....nowadays im very sensitive and very fast angry....aikks....
Don't know why....@@
Really miss my past...my schooling days....in 5SC2....it was so fun XD

Everyday just went to school to play and laugh laugh and laugh....HAHAHA....
Mad class....5SC2 year 2008 = totally a DISASTER....LoL
I think we already created a history in SGI lah....everyday Miss Yoong will patrol our class....
What a HONOUR!! HAHA....
Always ponteng Sejarah classes, Math classes, Add Math classes, Chemistry classes, Physics classes, BI classes, BM classes, and even Moral classes....what the heck!! XD
We even ponteng school!! Haha....
Arhh! I remembered once i stomachache....i ponteng class just to went back home for my BELOVED toilet XD
Then went back to shool to attend classed again....LoL
Imagine that....
Well....unforgettable memories....5SC2 year 2008.

Nothing special....

Its 5am in the morning now, 1st of April 2009.

Its April Fool day XD.

Well....i can't sleep....don't know why....just feel like typing some stuff here....

Currently im listening to Your Call - Secondhand Serenade

Something wrong with me i guess....always can't sleep....

I really don't know want to type what here nor what to say....

Just feel like moving my fingers to type type type non-stop....

My mind is blank now....i can't even think properly of what i should do....

Did i told you guys before im a scenery lover? Yes? No? Perhaps No....

Well, yeah. Im a scenery lover. I love to stare at the mountains, the sea or any wonderful scenery while listening to my favourite songs and enjoying my favourite drinks....

I bet i will do so when im old one day....while enjoying my older life with no regret....

I love sentimental songs....it relaxes my mind....feeling so fresh....

What should i do now? Keep on sitting infront of computer?

Or should i go sleep? Hmm....maybe....

Maybe i really should go sleep now....

Nights ~ ....

What's wrong?

Hehe....today abit very blur....maybe coz ytd night didn't sleep....today i got car driving lesson at 10am to 12pm. As usual....im asked to drive at 3 roads, road C, G and F. Unexpected....my car's engine die =.=", not my day i think....haha....i think maybe cause im tired so can't focus properly....haha. My instructor don't dare to sleep today XD. He asked me what happened to me today? Why car engine keep goes off? I could not reply anything but a smile to him while thinking....'' OMG, what happaned to me? It is cause i didn't sleep? '' LoL

After my car driving lesson, i head back home. I online again when i reached home....then i took a bath. Later on, i went downstair online again. I was sitting on an office chair with my leg on the table, accidentally i felt my back pain and i realised i sprained my back. HAHA. So stupid of me....even now still paining....tomorrow gonna have another 1 hour driving lesson....haha....wish me luck ^^
Then Friday QTI le @@....abit nervous....haha. If fail don't laugh me lor XD

How i wish....to change the unchangeable....

People said life is meaningless...i said NO!. Life is wonderful, full with challenges, full with love, full with experience, full with happiness, full with fun, full with sadness. Everyone did mistake, no one is born to be perfect. Time passed very fast, how i wish i could go back in time to change what we can before its too late....how i wish my family is not broken....how i wish im still a kid playing everyday not knowing sadness and hatred....how i wish i never lost my good fren....how i wish i never know her earlier....how i wish what done can be undone....how i wish i can never be a loner....how i wish i can be happy all the time....as well as the others....how i wish everything are not true....how i wish....

Not knowing sincerity, not knowing the truth, not knowing the life, please don't judge.
Life is tough....life is a test of a lifetime to us, human beings, it can only be done for ONCE in a lifetime. Regretting is not the point Appreciation is the key, Truth is the past Retry is the hope. Im just a 18 years old guy....not to be confident in life, however i met with alot of situations before. Situations which tested me out of fear, out of hatred, out of sadness, and out of happiness. And i learnt my mistakes, i learnt what is life....it is just touch n go....don't stop....you will only fall back far behind. Life is a cycle....where living and dead to go....where people are born people are dead....

There will always a better time for us....no matter how bad it is....appreciate what the God gave you, appreciate the one standing around us all the time. Enjoy your day with a smile....everything will goes well....as long as you have faith you will have hope, as long as you have confident you will be success. I don't know how should i say this, but i really envy people who managed to live on with difficulties in their lives. I may not have strong difficulties, but i do have my own problems....im stressed with my family problems and my living days by days. With the supports from my friends i wll not give up easily....i will do the best for myself....i will try my best to do what i can....

3 months passed ==

oh sweat....dear God....3 months passed since my last blog post @@ hmm...so many things happened in these 3 months time...it was totally a heart breaking start of the year....nothing can be done to prevent it from happened. Sad, anger, depression, lonely was part of my life in these 3 months....i've been trying very hard to move on....on and on and on...days by days....just like nothing have ever happened before....but i can't lie to myself....THIS IS THE FACT! and i have to FACE IT! What have happened? LoL....not telling you....haha. From now on...i will change myself from top to toe, changing to be better without letting others to look down upon me as well as myself....wil lcontinue my dream to be a pilot....i hope everything goes well....even if it is not, i will still further my studies in college....i won't give up....i've been very sad in the past month....its truly hurted my heart deeply....but its ok....i will learn to accept it....forgive and forget! I learnt something new....happiness is the most priceless things in the world....nothing can ever take over the value of happiness....our life are short....we won't know when will we die....its all decided by the God of our living and dead....i will take this as a lesson in my lifetime....my first wonderful lesson of my lifetime....without regretting it....

Yes, im tired....tired of feeling all alone....however solidtary makes me stand up and strive....to do what i have to....cause i was born to do what i should do....and im torn to do what i have to....life is hard to be predictable....we won't know what will happen next....we will just have to walk step by step....doing what we could....doing what we can....doing what we ought to do....sometimes....it is destined....however, my mum always told me....do not regret of what i have ever done....because what done is done and it is done by our own hand....so just let it be....now i realised that i have did a big mistake....forget and forgive is important....learn to forget and learn to forgive....eventualy you will be happier